Confused? not ordinary crap u all will read?

I am sorry to hear you feel or were abused....and yeah...brothers can be that way...You are just a young teen..and you have your whole life ahead of you...so don't get down on it...realize that in about 5 years..you can and will be making most of your own decisions...so at this point..you have to focus on what life path you are gonna be taking....I know that sounds like an old fart speaking...but trust me...when you make the right choice for that..get a decent education....you will find a good job..and the pieces will come together....As for Lezabeth or Elizabeth....she is who you are manifesting your feelings in at this point...and your hormones are raging and confusing the hell out of you....Guess what...you are normal....You are at a point in life..that not a lot makes sense...and you feel trapped, alone and negative about just about everything....and you want someone to vent it with...that girl was the someone....and she and you might end up being bf/gf at some point...or in all probability..end up going your own separate ways.....most people change their friends about half a dozen times in their lives...some stick around..but the majority wander off in the direction their life has taken...so don't go putting all your eggs in one basket...it just does not work that way...the one person who is gonna be with you forever...is you...and you need to be sure you are happy with who you are....and when you know you are happy with you...any of the crap around you will not be as big an impact on you...you take it for what it is worth and move on with your life...eventually you will find the person you want to be with (takes time to develop those feelings), and you will hook up with your next round of friends...until life takes you in a different direction...and you will enjoy the life you have at that moment...and know that the things you don't like about that life can be changed...and the future will have less and less of the things in it that bug ya...so do not despair...smile...dun worry about ya brother..he probably going thru the same stuff...just reacting differently....like the song says...If you going thru hell...keep on going...ya might get out before the Devil even knows your there...Buck up...things will get better....Hope this helps...